Didn't know I was holding my hands up for your investigation. I didn't know I offended you by being here, my own mutation. I don't see a reason to pretend that I like it. I don't fight it. I'm rotten. I'm dirty, like the water that you flush beneath you. I've gotten to be this way by my own determination to decay. In your practical land, a castrated animal I am. Throwing all my childhood garbage out the window of my storage bin, living in sin. Yesterday it seemed like you were here. This will be the day I choke on last night's crystal resin tear. I fear I'm holding on to some foolish alibi, living a lie. Cemetery garden perennials are a colorful invitation. Wishing I could fly through the windshield like a kid in a roller-coaster line. I'm waiting in line. I don't like it. I don't fight it. I'm rotten. Dirty, like the water that you flush beneath you. I've gotten to be this way by my own determination to decay. In your practical land, a castrated animal I am. Throwing all my childhood garbage out the window of my storage bin, living in sin. Yesterday it seemed like you were here. This will be the day I choke on last night's crystal resin tear. I fear I'm holding on to some foolish alibi, living a lie.
What's it like where you're living? Do you still call it death? What's that chill I feel? I remember the day we met. You were stoned. So was I. I could make you laugh. Twenty years came like a bandit, stole you from your bike and it left me here singing this song for you. I can still hear you laughing at me that way, in your baggy blue jeans and blue flannel shirt, tattered. What would you like to say to me? Can you say it somehow? I am listening. Does this road you see me traveling on lead me to the end? To save your place again I'd lose my life and what life would I win? Twenty years came like a bandit, stole you from your bike and it left me here singing this song for you. Tell me, is it easier? Tell me, are you free again, like we were? Like we were. I gave you all my secrets. You kept them safe for me. Do you have any secrets? I went back to the little town we were strangled by and I tried to call you. I still call you.
In the darkness there is nothing. In the cold of life and love forgotten, I am as I am not. But flesh and bones is my soul imprisoned and I cannot touch the light. And so I cannot be without the sweet wine of your innocence. Yet I despise the power which keeps me bound and apart from you. For you are the light I long to embrace and I am the dark you seek to abandon. And this is the world we know as Hell. And in you is that which is Heaven. That which is love. And here is the illusion of millions of years between us. Where I am there is no such time. There is nothing between us. You are the earth. I am the seas. This is a world of mystery. Don't forget me in the morning. Don't forsake me when you pray. Fear the darkness. Hear the warning. You can't hold me to the light of day. You are my love. I am forbidden. Don't forget me in the morning. Don't forsake me when you pray. Fear the darkness. Hear the warning. You can't hold me to the light of day. You can keep my love for me. I know where you are. You can keep my soul for me. I will find you. I will find you. In the darkness there is nothing. In the cold of life and love forgotten, I am as I am not. But flesh and bones is my soul imprisoned and I cannot touch the light. And so I cannot be without the sweet wine of your innocence. Yet I despise the power which keeps me bound and apart from you. For you are the light I long to embrace and I am the dark you seek to abandon. And this is the world we know as Hell. And in you is that which is Heaven. -Eliot